Friday, December 10, 2004
no one.
sch is starting next week and my timetable is absolutely disgusting. tho i only have to go to sch on tuesdays..my lessons start only at 12 but ends at 6pm! arghh..its so horrible..the only day that i don't have to work..i have to end at 6..no life. no life. no life. isabel ends sch 1 hour earlier which gives her an extra hour to find her life..sigh..did i mention that its so horrible? *hangs head*
nowadays i find it hard to make decent, meaningful conversation with pple around me..but i have no idea whether is it me, or is it the pple around me. pple whom i used to be able to talk to so easily and naturally is turning into a chore already. sometimes i make an effort to start the conversation but somehow, they just don't respond to it. its so tiring to attempt to do it over and over again. and to think of it, its really not my nature to do so anyways. think i'm still not cut out to be friendly huh? i shall make an effort to respond more to pple who tries to start a conversation of any kind cos it really hurts when pple don't respond to your efforts.
its not hard to let someone feel unimportant and small, you just have to dismiss what they say. as much as its not spoken, actions actually cuts more than words. many times, things are just awkward becos one party chooses to think too much. i won't deny that i'm like that too but at least i'm trying to change already. on the other hand, imagining things out of nothing is just plainly absurd cos firstly: you think too much. secondly: you think too much. thirdly: you think too much. i think if i continue rambling, i will not make any sense. it just eeks me to have all these things cramped in my head. argh. somehow my day is ruined already.
i shall not try anymore.
Useless fact of the day: If you keep a Goldfish in the dark room, it will eventually turn white.
blip rambled on
Friday, December 10, 2004
