Monday, October 31, 2005
il mondo.
the past weekend left me puzzled, trying to figure out what exactly is happening. kinda think maybe its me thinking too much, reading too much into his actions. but i really think he is being unusually friendly all of a sudden. it comes as quite a surprised especially after such a long period of mutual silence. the 'where you going' scene 2weeks ago that gave me a 2mins minor heart palpitation and a busride full of thoughts was forgotten until now. can't figure out why he's acting the way he is towards the both of us. it's only when i stand at the side and observe that i saw the awkwardness. why is he being antisocial? hmm. weird.
this week will be a great start to november cos of the 2 public holidays! i'll only have to work for monday (which have already passed), weds and friday! its a no-work saturday this week but i'll still hafta attend the nus gala dinner for work purpose. bleah. there goes my saturday night man. ah well! tmr is kusu island picnic day! i am excited! tho i'm still a lil disappointed that we had to cancel the malacca trip cos of the
mothers, i shall make the best out of it =D i heard that auntie soomei is gonna bring some tasty pie tmr! yay!
lately, i'm finding it hard to string words into proper sentences. i should prolly start eating TCM, make me a lil more alert, awake and hopefully brainier.ha! and i realised that its a danger to put me online when i'm tired, especially after midnight. have the tendency to blurt things out without hesitation and end up with the 'oh shit' feeling. oh crap. dear kind souls, if you happen to see me online after 1am next time and i'm starting to tell you that actually i talk to myself sometimes, please ask me to go to bed. i'm a hazard to myself. =)
an upcoming violent thai movie is screening on the 3rd of november! its actually m18 if i'm not wrong. maybe thats the reason they showed ongbak last night on channel U. it is quite amusing when you see 'M18', lots of fighting and blood when the name of the movie is "tom yam goong". isn't that like soup?! i remember drinking that at thai express la..! so now movie titles actually don't need to have anything to do with the movie genre huh? or its just that having a food name in the title is attractive enough? tom yam goong. hmm. i remember its very nice leh. is it clear but spicy soup? or is it the reddish tom yam? can't really remember. anyway, with tom yam goong paving the way for future movie makers, i'm looking forward to the day where they film 'the curse of the flying siew mai', starring andy lau and tony leung.
blip rambled on
Monday, October 31, 2005
Saturday, October 22, 2005
uh huh.
a brand new day. beautiful morning with a cool breeze. the air is fresh and calming to the soul. so why the hell am i awake at 8.38am on a saturday?!?!!? i am sad. i can't get back to slp!! now i feel lost and i don't know what am i suppose to do on a no-work saturday afternoon. sigh. feel like going jogging but my body is weak. somehow i think i'm woken by my growling stomache and subconsciously thinking of what i want to eat for breakfast. told mama last night tt i wanna eat vegetarian beehoon but right now, i feel like eating chicken murtabak..with the beehoon. and tho its early in the morning, the craving for watercress porkrib soup is strong! gosh i feel like an animal. O_o
so last night i was watching "in the womb", this documentary about the growing process of the foetus in the mama's womb, and i felt sad. cos to see the foetus on ultrasound is such a beautiful thing and it connects the parents to the unborn baby. but movies like "the eye 2" just totally spoil this beautiful moment by showing the evil foetus glaring at shuqi during her ultrasound. its so irritating even for pple like me who have NEVER watch that show before but the foetus part made such a deep impression. tsk!
so now i have absolutely nothing on my mind to talk abt. i am awake before 9am on a no-work saturday, i have an unknown rash near my arm, i am hungry and i can't make myself go jogging. think i shall go and brush my teeth.
this is such a nonsense entry.
blip rambled on
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Monday, October 17, 2005
monday blues.
10 things i've been accustomed to doing in a normal week:
- going to church.
- mahjong on sunday afternoons.
- watching
csi (
any csi.).
- chatting/eating/hanging with fweak. (keeps my sanity in check.)
- chatting with ducky. (early return! i am happy!)
- watching
scrubs.
- worry and brood.
- laugh/trade insults/attempt to disturb, lydia hong.
- chatting with thomas. (brightens mood. keeps sanity in check.)
- talking to lydia hong. (brightens mood too cos she's mad.)
i don't know how much i can or
should rely on other pple to pull me back. i have a tendency to become reliant and from past experience. its
not good. have no idea when did all these things become part of my life. but somehow, i'm glad it did.
p/s: 2nd - 9th item does
not come in any significant order. =P
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the past weekend had been a new experience for me altogether. it felt good to be able to sometimes bridge the gap between the jm and the sm. can't seem to fully express what i really feel but it was nice. somehow i think there should be no such thing as a generation gap as long as pple are willing to take the time to understand and communicate. i probably sound naive but this is what i hope to do next time for the community when i graduate. (
if i graduate, for that matter)
got to hear brother hong's side of the drama-saga-story during the weekend too. (i know, weird week) felt the ache for him cos no one really deserve to endure that kind of shit. he really impressed me with the way he handled the matter. it's sensible and mature. i think i'm not at that level yet cos i still find it hard to see past the pain. i must really start learning to be magnanimous. in one way or another, i still learn alot from the pple ard me regardless of age. tt's how we grow, right? =)
watching skeleton key on toosday with pple i don't usually watch movie with. i'm actually looking forward to it! haha. i am such a shmuck.
Interesting realisation: My sister finds the camp t-shirt suggestion of "Grace is my boss" highly amusing. Still have absolutely
zero idea why people even find her remotely frightening.
blip rambled on
Monday, October 17, 2005
Thursday, October 13, 2005
spontaneous.
one day's off. 3hrs spent in the hospital. enough paracetemol to turn me into a drug addict or prolly kill me. 7packets x 7pieces of medicated plaster to share between my family. did not get the x-ray, did not get a firm clue about what the hell is wrong with my neck. i guess i should start popping pills, stop drinking cold water and do more neck exercise. could someone pls remind me regularly to do the above stated? sigh.
rest of the day was spent with shihui zipping from place to place. went up to nus biz blk after my appt to wait for her and left for sentosa after tt. dinner at S.E.A village was great! chomp down lots of bread, prawns and vege in tomyam soup. things were great until the huge group of tourists came and surround us, screaming across the table and blocking the beautiful view. thank goodness we started dinner early and left not long after the tourists came.
thought we could chill at km8 after dinner but only stayed for 15mins tops. went down to the airport instead cos both of us just wanted to people watch at the departure hall. turns out theres a HUGE group of japanese college students departing today so we spent a good half an hour standing ard, looking at them and occasionally waving goodbye. hmm. i should prolly pick up a new language. =/ sorry that's totally random. it felt soothing to be able to sit at the viewing gallery, speaking our minds, enjoying the company. switched location to east coast park after tt just cos we felt like it. i love it when things are spontaneous! y'noe sometimes there's really no need to have a reason to do things sometimes, the point is to capture the moment and make the best out of it! suddenly i feel out of steam. i should prolly stop talking right now. gdnite kids
i'm online. just not online. -shrugs- it didn't ring afterall.
blip rambled on
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
rants.ramblings n whatnots.
quidam. decided to skip it afterall. woke up this morning and all of a sudden, just don't feel like going anymore. prolly cos i was distracted by the pain raging my neck. finally got my butt down to making that hospital appt (thankew ian) after putting it off for the past few days. it was only when i put down the phone that i realised the appt is infact tmr. O.o oh well, at least i got 1-day off from work! i am happy!
i miss ducky. how i wish you're back in sg right now so i could have someone to eat la mian and go shopping with me today. =/ but i'm happy to hear positive news from you today! remember i got evidence of our conversation k! pompous shmucks like
some are meant to be abandoned and burnt at stake in medieval times but we shall skip that all together and carry on with our lives.
left the office fighting the urge to make my way down to great world city. the only thing that stopped me was the realization that i have absolutely zero idea how to get there. =/ should prolly ask mom later and hopefully the old-navy-lookalike shop is still there or my purpose will be totally defeated. but speaking of buying stuff, fond hugs at novena is having a sale! and guess vhat? the dress tt i vanted to buy 4months ago is selling at $19!! it was $49 back then!! i'm so glad i din buy the dress back then if not i'd kick myself and prolly start bawling. of course i bought the dress. i should prolly lose some weight and tone some muscles to fit the dress but tt can be done!
list of things i realised today:
- cupboards in the office have cockroaches too.
- trying to catch the west-bound train at cityhall does not guarantee a seat.
- fond hugs is extremely overpriced.
- my hair grows too fast. it will actually be ok if i have natural silky straight hair growing out of healthy pores that regenerates more natural silky straight hair but the fact is tt i don't. it's sad. now i have to cut my hair again. the only other person i know with superhuman hairgrowth power is thomas. i wonder when was the last time he combed his hair. hmm.
- you can change/cancel/make nuh appts online.
- i haven't buy my harrypotter:PoA vcd yet.
- i miss ducky.
while having dinner today, a lizard decided to scramble out from behind the fridge to scare the living daylights out of me. my immediate reaction? i jumped out of my seat, stumbled over my maid and fell onto the floor. my sister din know what it was but jumped up anyway cos there can be only two reasons to render such a reaction from me:
1) theres a lizard. (clearly)
2) theres a cockroach.
3) theres a beetle.
ok fine thats 3reasons but i consider beetles to be as revolting as cockroaches so i'm listing it anyway. plus, i haven't seen a cockroach in the hse as long as i remembered. not that i need them anyway. i have enough cockroaches in the office to form a small office by themselves. don't they get the hint when all their brothers turn up dead? anyhoo, dinner was paused for 3mins while my dad went chasing for the lizard. it was only when it went flying out of the window tt we resumed our dinner.
shall go watch earthquake documentary on discovery now. later kids.
blip rambled on
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Monday, October 10, 2005
running thoughts.
dreamt of him last night. in my dreams we were just sitting on the floor, next to each other, chatting leisurely with no traces of awkwardness. it was amicable, natural and above all, nice =) its been a long long time since he appeared already and tho there's an odd familiarity to it, i'm actually glad tt my dreams have moved on as well. heh.
*all smiles*lunched with lydia and co yday after church before our sunday afternoon indulgence and it was fun! fun to talk about things in sec sch now compared to days i remembered, primary sch days, funny things we did when we're young, weird things we
believed as kids. cute primary sch
picture etched in my head. having teh and duckrice together. i can only say, i really really like my life now. guess i need to find fulfilment in my current life now before i start thinking of other commitments and obligations. =/
weekends always seem so short when sunday night comes. cannot remember when did i start dreading mondays or to have sunday night blues. sigh. well, on the brighter side of things, sunday afternoon mahjong have somehow become our weekly routine already. it's like a time for us to let our hair down, be all crazy, trade insults, laugh out loud,
snort out loud, whatever unglam behaviour you can think of, you will see it at the hongs on sunday. kenny will be shouted at for being slow, hong mama will be sitting at the side trying to help kenny out while laughing her face red, eugene will be studying in the room singing loudly to himself, i'll be doing short bursts of crazy at everyone, lydia will be singing weird songs, ruth'll keep asking us to hurry up while naggin at me for not giving her the tiles she need, my sister'll laugh and say "hurry up la!" in her most 'grace' voice. overnight, eugene and i (and possibly my sister) have become sunday siblings and he stunned us all by saying "havent past 12am, i'm still a hong."
the horrible neckache is back again. =/ having constant headache now which doesn't go away with medication. sigh. need to remind myself to call nuh up to get an appt and hopefully an xray as well. this sucks man. ouch.
Useless fact of the day: When you eat too much, your hearing becomes less sharp.
blip rambled on
Monday, October 10, 2005
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
100th post.
it's over. though in my mind i know it's inevitable, i didn't expect it to happen so soon. tho it wasn't long ago when she reassured me that things are going on great, and that he is putting in effort, things have somehow gone down the hill and ended before i could even be less skeptical of this whole thing. didn't know what to say when i heard, didn't know how to react without being insensitive. felt let-down? felt upset? a little of each mixed with numbness. i'm so sorry dear that i can't be more supportive or encouraging. =/ i hope you will be able to find closure from all this and focus on better things ahead.
*pat pat* i'll be co-president with you =) we can go travelling for months without any holdbacks, replace romantic movies with disaster genre and drink milkshakes at the heeren billy bombers where you had your classic moment of shouting 'oei' at the waiter for dropping your card! ^o^
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anyhoo, compared to last week, i feel like i'm having a vacation this week. no rushing of time, no constant phonecalls, no need to wear heels and walk around all day resulting in soles feeling like they were on fire, no need! its back to 9.30am-6pm workweek for me to find some social life! i can tell you it did not start well with my monday night spent infront of the tv watching debate on channel06 and eventually ended with 'the mysterious death of cleopatra' on discovery. evidence pointed out that cleopatra did not actually kill herself but rather, octavian orchestrated the murder cos cleopatra's son caesarion fathered by caesar will compete for the throne with him. history is indeed fascinating and i do hope one day i will be able to travel to egypt or rome and feast my eyes on the beauty of the past. any takers? =D
well, hope to get a pair of nice beach shorts today while shopping for mama's present. lucky we have something in mind to buy cos the birthday is tomorrow!! don't even think we have the time for a meal together =/ oh well, it's the thought that counts right? supposed to watch brothers grimm with ian today but ended up psk-ing him. wahaha! =p kinda had a premonition that something like that will happen already. at least i warned you right? muaha! i still wanna catch that show leh, reschedule next week if it's still showing!
Useless fact of the day: A cockroach will live nine days without its head, before it starves to death. (that's disgusting)
blip rambled on
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
