Monday, November 28, 2005
dreams.
i dreamt one night that i was walking on the streets, breathing in the crisp clean air, searching for a place of rest. then i stumbled across this building, thinking it's a church tho there weren't any distinct signs. it was only when i stepped through the door that i realised i was in a resort of some sort, with rows and rows of beautiful restaurants. each have their own theme and style, perfectly arranged seatings, captivating lightings illuminating the room, dim yet it felt just right.
my surroundings weren't deserted. it was alive with people, sitting at high tables of dark glossy wood, milling around, conversing, laughing, enjoying each other's company over a pint or two. somehow, even with the clusters of people around me, no one bumped into me and it wasn't suffocating nor was it intimidating. indescribable feelings of comfort and acceptance.
walking on i came to an alfresco setting with a bar set against the coming of dusk. candles upon tables, couples enjoying champagne in flute glasses, bohemian music softly played, soothing the senses. closing in i saw people lounging in the pool with small little waves lapping at their cheeks. the pool was a shade of deep blue and it was upon closer observation that i realised, there was no end to the pool line. it was build right next to the ocean of a similar colour tone, probably separated by a thin wall but creating the illusion that it's one and the same. the sound of the waves crashing onto each other and the breathtaking picture enthralled me, drawing me deeper and deeper....then i woke up.
it felt like paradise. only i know this is nothing compared to what awaits me. but if i could choose, i might not want to wake up at all.
blip rambled on
Monday, November 28, 2005
Saturday, November 26, 2005
raving madness.
9.43am. saturday. jalan novena barat. list of things to do today at work: check mail. freecell.check mail again. freecell. blog. check mail (its auto check but the server aint working). freecell. freecell. freecell.
somehow in my work daze i've gotten addicted to freecell when one day i realised that my computer actually has games! and so since this week is a rather free week, i've spent almost 3 hours everyday playing freecell, conquering ALL games and replaying tough ones 10times just to break it. have i become smarter? dont think so. but am i more alert? HELL YEAH! tho i sound like a dork to say this, but i am PROUD to be zai at freecell! muahah! its a form of art i tell you! try winning 6 games in succession without replays! i'm proud of my lifeless achievement thank you very much.
looking back, theres really nothing much to update for my week. watched Just like Heaven on monday (cliche but sweet. cannot compare to sleepless.), met up with daph and mey on thursday for dinner at sakae (FINALLY! chawanmushi!) & drinks at gelare. highlight of the week? mahjong at the hongs yesterday! i seek to clarify that we are not compulsive gamblers nor do we even play with peanuts. it's just a session of destressing, lame jokes, incoherent speaking, short outbursts of animal squawks, tuneless humming and of course, harmless insults. but yday's session was moving on too slowly and we only completed ONE round after almost 2hours la! taught marc to play abit and we all agreed that he learns faster then kenny tho he din't seem all too interested in the game. realised for the first time that he DONT speak chinese at all. try teaching someone mahjong in english. "flower or animal? this one is your PASSPORT to win. eighty thousand, you want? lots of laughter and fun! i like. =)
now that the weekend is here, i'm dreading for monday to come. schedule's jam packed for the next 2 weeks i really wonder if i'll collapse. just a quick look: monday is free. tues n weds will be the arrival of the semarang group so i'll be out of the office, thurs-sat semarang grp going up KL, last min order to go up with them. sun-weds church camp (note:familiarise with games), thurs-fri up to genting and down again, sat is work day. feeling extremely apprehensive about the looming week ahead but i'm sure when it's over, i'll be damn happy with myself. muaha! anyone wants to meet me up there in KL? haha you can bunk in with me but settle your own transport please. =P
oops! tim came into the office already. i shall start freecelling instead of typing vigorously into on the keyboard. clicking is less conspicuous.
blip rambled on
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Thursday, November 17, 2005
ingenue.
after brooding for days over my work stuff, it suddenly hit me one day that doctors are the most stressed out pple in the world. while my work mistakes will just result in lost of trust or money, doctors actually can't afford to make mistakes at all cos it small errors can result in lives being lost. i guess everyone will face problems at work, stress and deadlines, pressure from all around but ultimately it is up to ourselves to not be a weakling and deal with what is given to us. i shall strive to not be a weakling.
finally caught goblet of fire last night at jp with lydia and co. the effects are amazing and captivating, moments where scenes are so incredible it took my breathe away. but sad to say, they butchered the book. =( the quidditch world cup (fyi: ireland won but krum got the snitch), the triwizard tournament (obstacles in the maze not shown), the house elves (SPEW? dobby? winky?), etc etc. throughout the whole movie i was subconsciously remembering scenes from the book and trying to fit it into the movie. its quite sad to see the story being rushed through without much details given. felt disappointed but still, i dont regret watching it cos afterall, it IS harry potter! i am i fan! =D
last night got me thinking alot abt keeping the pple around me closer. to have friends drift away from you and thinking it is inevitable is such a sad fact and sometimes i really wish it wouldn't end this way. but more often than not, we don't get what we want. the news really caught me off guard cos i did not expect it at all (i think i can speak for the general population) and it really saddens me to think that you're not gonna be ard so often anymore. i guess my pessimistic outlook serves to protect myself by expecting the worse so when something better happens, its an additional bonus. i guess technology will always be the bridge connecting the 2 points. ohwell, you said you have somehow made a decision already, we'll hear it soon? =)
so while digesting shocking news last night, i was also talking to tiger abt enigma. prolly its becos i'm already in a bad mood or something but i got really pissed with him tho technically he didn't do anything wrong. but somehow it just upsets me to see him unknowingly doing this to her and be all ignorant about it. argh! you! you and your group of friends! hmmph! i'm just being one-sided on this but as of this moment,
i don't like you. it's so like
you to be insensitive to other pple's feelings. bleah. i know its not a fair statement but right now, i just cannot make myself think nice things about you. selfish beeyotch i know but you are so irritating it actually makes me sick. she's too good for you anyway. pah!
p/s: i just need to vent. i apologise if it sounded vicious.been watching alot of Scrubs lately and this is by far, my favourite statement by elliot:
"I was planning on coming here and telling you that you'll always come first. But, the truth is that's not a promise I can keep. But the one thing I can guarantee you is that, when it's my decision, I'll always choose you."right now, this applies to my closest chummies. no such thing as drifting. period. =)
blip rambled on
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Thursday, November 10, 2005
it's all random.
this morning, i woke up and:1) i have no memory of switching off my alarm and going back to slp.
2) my mom had to wake me up at 7.40am thinking i'm too sick to go work.
3) i realised my throat is not hurting and i don't feel feverish or dizzy anymore.
4) i realised i dreamt of reverend see last night. i was asking him whether can i bring my handphone to school. =/ in my dreams, i was still in secondary school and i was contemplating pon-ing school.
) i woke up with a bloody nose. shocked my mom until she realise the blood is from the pimple that burst overnight. (eww..=/)
right now, i'm: 1) bothered by kids between the age of 2-5yrs.
2) bothered by the 2 maids sitting outside my office talking very loudly.
3) realising my nose is now bleeding from the inside from the constantly rubbing and nose blowing. (eww..=/)
4) not hungry.
5) lazy to refill my waterbottle tho i know i need lots of fluid.
remembered something that made me laugh:one fine saturday afternoon before yf, we were just sitting around waiting for something to happen when the topic of letter writing was brought up. apparently someone commented that hunky's letter to the bethany home incharge should be more personal or possibly intimate cos of the many scandalous tales that revolves ard hunky. anyway, so we were trading stories of letter writing to suppliers and such when jianmin hit us with the winning story:
--> on one occasion he had to fax a letter requesting goods from his supplier. i do not remember the name of the supplier but i shall call her nancy. and so, the letter started with "Dear Nancy, blahblahblahblahblah." BUT! at this moment he realised that he spelt Nancy wrongly! so he blanco off the name Nancy, meaning to spell it right. so he continued writing the fax, write write write..".....Best Regards, Jianmin"...and he faxed it. it was until much later when he realised that he did not rewrite the name. and so, Nancy from the otherside saw the fax as "Dear, blahblahblahblah." muahaha! talk about intimate faxes man!! i'm sure Nancy was highly amused by the fax when she called jianmin and asked him to send it again with her name written on it.
so there, random thoughts at 11.45am on a thursday morning.
(thursday?! its thursday already?!)
blip rambled on
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Monday, November 07, 2005
mr postman.
last week started off great with tons of fun at kusu island, 3 day work week..actually looked forward to lots of rest, great company and prolly some sort of solitude. but that didn't happen. rather, the alternate rest days kinda changed my body clock one way or another. it really sucks to keep waking up and wondering whether is it sunday or monday. well, the week did
not go well for me. so many things happened in such a short span of time that i didn't even have time to breathe before i'm hit by another wave. when friday came, as well as the last blow, i thought i was gonna collapse. i have not felt that much weight in my heart for a long long time already. it was literally choking me, sucking all positive feelings out from me (now i know how it feels like to be demented. haha =p) and i really had the urge to inflict pain on myself just to see if i can feel anymore pain. choir time was somehow spent in a daze with thoughts racing through my head without stopping to digest them. everything was just touch and go, touch and go. =/
but on the brighter side of things, it's only on friday that i fully realise how sweet doreen really is! just an encouraging squeeze on the arms and a smile, somehow it says alot and yet so subtle. yijun's silent company, eulyn's self mockery to make me laugh, lydia's lame yet heartwarming msgs, ian's concern, donny's
hello panda. such good friends! what more can anyone ask for right? =)
i really hope this week will be a better week ahead. having interval attacks of hives on my body, making me itch like hell and yet i'm not allowed to scratch them!! grr. speaking of such, wei tsin has dengue! cannot even start to imagine how that feels like. heard that she's still quite weak but at least she's eating already. poor girl. according to kaka, dengue patients have to draw blood everyday for testing, which means they'll poke you everyday la! as much as i pride myself on not feeling pain the last time i drew blood, i dowan to go through that everyday la. but i'll always remember the words of fweak "i like the pain man." fweak indeed. hahaa =p well! pray that wei tsin gets better! she's at the 'hotel' gleneagles right now and lemme tell you, if i can stay there i think i'll recover twice as fast man! which reminds me that i've never been there before. hmm. maybe i should go down one day and take a look =D
on a closing note, lemme share with you something i found out over the weekend about the 2 itp students:
weixin: next time i want my daughter to learn ballet and my son to learn piano!
ok nothing weird about that.melvin: i want my kids to have tuition everyday. learn more math and science not good meh?
this guy is obviously out of his mind. poor kids.
blip rambled on
Monday, November 07, 2005
