Tuesday, December 19, 2006
musings.
its weird that i always feel the urge to blog during times of tests and exams. wassup with that man. anw taking a break from brain and behaviour before commencing on psychopharm topic. its seriously draining every single cell in my brain starting with the cerebrospinal fluid. haha ok sorry random ranting of terms.
ohyes! i watched Holiday yesterday! whatever the darn critics say, I LIKE IT. so what if its slow-paced? it doesnt necessarily mean that its boring. its the end of the year man give us a break. its nice to have a neutral show with gorgeous cottages, villages, chimneys, snow and whatnots to bring in the christmas cheer. the only thing is i'm not feeling the cheer. yet. =/ checked back my post last christmas and i realised i din felt the cheer then too. what's happening? its gonna be damn depressing if i look back here a year later and i'm still feeling that anticlimax feeling towards the holidays. maybe i just need a break. one that really feels like a break without tons of programme lined up everyday. i want time to do the things i WANT to do, pple i wanna meet and talk to, movies i wanna watch. its not too much to ask for the holidays aint it? right. so give it to me!
anyhoo, started this entry at steph's and i'm ending it back at home. did almost 8hrs of brain n behaviour today and i'm totally wasted. on a random note, today's the day i finally saw steph eat rice. or eat a proper meal for that matter..and i've known her since march. weird huh? well, ask me and i can tell you more abt her extended family etc. its hilarious yet disturbing to some depending on how you see it. cant wait for tmr's test to be over so i can breathe again. it pisses me off to constantly feel that i needa study and shld not be doing anything remotely relaxing. like yesterday halfway through The holiday, i was assaulted with guilt that i have wasted time i could have used to study to watch a movie. damn sian la i refuse to be bounded by that. i just need tmr to be over so i can get back some sort of sanity. -stares into space-
sometimes i wonder if i'll be better at deciphering words and actions with all that i'm studying. it doesnt make sense to me when words and actions dont seem to match yet i'm supposed to accept that its just the way things are. wouldnt it be easier if 'yes' means 'yes' and 'no' means 'no'? i dont get it. do you?
i guess i was never good at charades.
blip rambled on
Tuesday, December 19, 2006