Saturday, February 05, 2005
thinking. thinking.
days are getting mundane and long for me..i cannot even find anything interesting to blog and right now, phrasing and rephrasing this sentence took me 5 minutes. oh! on thursday, we had our first cell group gathering at elaine's house! was really quite happy to be able to meet up with church pple on days other than sundays considering i work almost everyday. at least it kinda makes up for the many saturdays that i have missed yf. and! i managed to find their house by myself! ok so i asked one auntie for directions but! at least i managed to not get lost! boon tiong road, i'll remember you man!
the most disturbing thing of that gathering was, when we had to go around and share abt happy things that happen to us for the past 2 weeks, i could not think of anything! i mean, i don't really feel unhappy or anything, but rather, i've been feeling..nothing. other than knowing that i only have to work 2.5 days next week which i felt ecstatic, i've not really been feeling much positive emotion for a long time. really wonder whether is it becos i'm working too much, therefore i don't have much of a life to be happy, or its just me.
i'm thankful to have friends around me and even more thankful that i'm able to create new ties with pple i've known for so many years but sometimes, i really
do feel empty. i'm sure i've had happy moments for the past few months, but somehow i just cannot remember them. i really wonder whether am i really that affected by the split that i'll never get over it? somehow right now, as much as memories will come back everyday, i'm not even thinking of it that much already. i mean, that's a good thing right? i
know that i'm moving on so its puzzling why i'm still not feeling much. ahh.
ok enough of me, let me tell you! one fine day, isabel's friend came into the office with her group of friends to collect tickets for their trip to bangkok and one of them is a trans. but! she's so handsome! not just cute, not good looking, but handsome! handsome! as in michael vartan handsome! with bright eyes, nice nose and good complexion! arghh!! beautiful man! why!? why?! the number of handsome guys are so dire in singapore right now and he chose to be a woman! no justice...no justice..
*grumble grumble*
oh the other day, went online to find job opportunities onboard starcruise and there's a position for customer service coordinator! quite attracted by it but kinda got the feeling that i'm too young for them to even consider me as an applicant. :( really interested in working there to get the experience man..hmm..maybe i should try working as a ground crew first. shall go to the office and get details one of these days..still have no idea whether should i apply for the universities in singapore considering the chances of me getting into smu, ntu and nus are so slim they could advertise for diet products. arhhh...so many things to consider, so many decisions to make! troubled. troubled.
This is Michael Vartan..!
Useless fact of the day: Each year, 30,000 people are seriously injured by exercise equipment.
**To back this statement up, yiheng nearly killed himself while lifting weights when he lost control of the 5kg weight and it came crashing down towards his head. he saved himself by siam-ing his head so fast he could have dislocated his neck and still resulted in serious injuries. it is shocking to see pple risking their lives for bigger chests!
blip rambled on
Saturday, February 05, 2005
