Sunday, June 26, 2005
blessed child.
through the years i have experienced the greatness of God's love, His unchanging compassion and His showers of blessings. He knows that i can't excel academically, yet i always managed to scrape through my many years in school. many times i look back and ponder the consequences if i had chosen to study in bp govt high. i suppose things would have been very different and i might not even be in the tourism industry now.
thankful also for the guidance in my life. thankful that i am a scaredy cat so i did not end up being an alcoholic-smoker-hooligan-drug abuser-gay. i assure you it is easy to fall into that especially when you come from a school like mine. and tho at every stage of my life i seemed to have made the wrong friends, God would still give me the right ones to carry me through. i am thankful He gave me a clear mind and i did not end up wasting my life away doing meaningless activities that you think you are supposed to do just becos you are of age.
i am thankful that even tho at times when i am waist deep in sin and unable to pull myself up, He's there to give me a hand, to give me a push and to pull me back to earth even if it means ripping skin and feeling enormous pain. He was there when my first relationship ended, comforting me with His words:
if I carried the weight of the world upon My shoulders, rest assure that I will carry you through. you might not believe it, you might not understand how simple words like that could lift the burden off your chest but i can tell you, He will never leave you and whatever pain you are feeling, He has been there and He shares your pain. now that the longing and pain have left me, i feel light and lifted, ready to let go and be thankful for the short span of time he spent in my life.
life doesn't suck. don't put that on your lips just becos its a common phrase to say. what in world could be so horrible that you would condemn your life like that? think of the many blessings in your life, the people around you who seemed insignificant but are the ones who sticked around when you actually need them, the safe environment we live in where we don't see human corpses lying around due to rioting, cars blowing up cos of terrorism and persecution due to racial discrimination. its frightening to realise that i am so easily influenced to discriminate against others and thinking that my actions are harmless when it is these exact discrimination that cause lives in other countries.
i dislike being labelled as religious. i feel that it is an insult to all believers out there becos what with have with God is a special and personal relationship. He does not only help you when you are lost and helpless and seek His help. He is there to pave a route for you even when you have already forgotten His existance when all is going well. the evangelistic rally tonight really opened my heart and mind to the fact that time waits for no man, how much more time would i waste before i would spread the salvation word? i want my close friends to walk with me along diamond-covered path and to spend eternity in heaven. would you walk with me?
there's no greater love than this, that a man would give his life for a friendthere's no higher sacrifice, that a man would give his life,Jesus have paid a precious price for me.
blip rambled on
Sunday, June 26, 2005
