Saturday, September 24, 2005
exhausted.
it's frustrating when you see pple you love throw themselves into deep shit time and time again even when they know that one day it will explode in their face and they get hurt. esp when they have been there and done that, get hurt, regret and yet again do it to themselves. i have no idea what to do neither can i make myself respect their decision cos i know it is not gonna work out and its pointless to hope for a miracle to happen. i do not deny that in the near future, after giving him some time to really get over it, it is possible to carry on and be brand new again. but right now, can't you see that it's not possible?! can't you see that you are being used?! why do you still insist on holding on and not mind being a replacement?
stop thinking of trying to be shan cos you will never be and its ridiculous to wanna make him find shan in you. do you really think you will be happy to just hang on to a tiny string of hope, in a huge shadow of the past and carry on thinking it will work out? please snap out of it..i beg you. i'm not saying this angrily, but rather, in a pleading way to please wake up and look at the picture. i'm so disappointed when i saw that entry, about you beggin him to give it another chance. didn't you say you regret not listening to us? didn't you say you should have seen it coming? then why! why are you still doing this? it hurts me to see you like that. it saddens me that you can't seem to think rationally, hoping that he will turn back and hold your hand. right now, this is all i can say to you. i do not know how exactly to reply to your entries cos it's exhausting. i hope you will clear your head, stop drinking and really sit down and
think for yourself. this i can be sure to say: he is not worth your time. he is an irresponsible jackass and i
detest him. period.
blip rambled on
Saturday, September 24, 2005
