writer -=ze name=- joyce the blip.
-=ze age=- 22years and growing

lately -=tune=- annie's song.
-=station=- gold90fm.
-=feeling=- contented.loved.
-=craze=- harrypotter.
-=enjoys=- slow afternoons.
-=awaiting=- christmas.
-=attained=- comfort and joy.

notebook -->catch up on onepiece.
-->get my D's.
-->a new pretty phone!
-->start rollerblading again.
-->il divo 2nd cd.
-->burberry wallet.
-->hunt for pretty tops.
-->church camp 2007.

surfs -->harry potter.
-->one piece.
-->josh groban.
-->csi:las vegas.
-->ed.
-->scrubs.

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peihui
eunice
dorothy
yiheng
theanimals
yijie
timothy
tianping
eugene
alvin
meiying
yingying

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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
running into open traffic.

looking back at the past week, i thank God that i managed to pull through it. though i'm physically tired, i'm actually looking forward to tomorrow's long ride up to genting. after 7 days of buzzing around, constantly having people around me, i can now get some alone time with myself. i dont mean that i hate talking to people or having company all the time, i do! just that i really enjoy having some me time, sitting alone with my jumbled thoughts, sorting through them one by one. couldn't really do that during camp cos there's constantly something to do, people to talk to and all. everytime i could find a short interval to take a breather, to stop and enjoy the solitude, someone will come along and ask why am i sitting alone or if i am alright. found it hard to tell them that i'm spending some quality time alone with myself cos it just sounds like i'm chasing them away or giving the feeling like i'm being intruded.

well, though camp was tiring and at times frustrating, it's one of the best i've had =) sewing the priest robes with en en, eunice & anna, doing tabernacle stuff with anna, marc, engyeow, ian and ah seh, such bonding. lots of laughs and random conversations, to learn new things about each other as well as to learn stuff together, it was great! hopefully i could get hold of some pictures to post it up here.

went to sleep at six in the morning today. only managed to get 3.5hours of slp and woke up feeling cranky. somehow during camp, was suddenly assaulted by an all too familiar yet horrible feeling. got moody quite pissed at myself and i'm seriously sick of feeling that way all over again. sometimes i really wished i'm more like ym, to take things as it is and not to think too much. only felt the magnitude of it all when i see my own character on him but somehow, i feel that feeling pessimistic is just a way of protecting myself. it is not good but it is the way i am. sigh. when will i ever learn?

distance. distance.
blip rambled on Wednesday, December 07, 2005