Tuesday, December 27, 2005
surprising nonchalance.
christmas came and left, leaving me with the post-christmas hangover. everything seemed very rushed this year and somehow, the festive period didn't seemed to catch up with me at all. it may seemed wrong to be chasing after the festive mood when christmas is not about partying and all but still, its quite sad that it felt so normal. it is because i'm working? it's weird cos after the long christmas weekend, i wasn't in the working mood either. so what is it?!
*confused*managed to catch up with shihui, peihui (finally!) on friday night and was joined by haisheng and bingyuan. always found it amazing that tho i dont hang out with them much, it dint felt strange to make conversation cos they'll just naturally start asking me stuff so i wouldn't have to start saying something. =/ oh! actually got 2 msgs from sharon and lynette last week, inviting me to christmas party and birthday party. i dint reply any of them cos i figured there's no point in me going considering i have nothing much to say to them.
-shrugs- BUT! lynette actually called me around midnight last night to ask me la! and through my unconscious state i still managed to reject the offer cos i have something on that day. woke up this morning thinking it was a dream until i checked my incoming and realised that she DID call. still think it's a better idea to not turn up cos i'll just end up feeling uncomfortable in their midst.
heard news over the christmas weekend that left me surprised yet not totally unexpected. surprised at how fast it can happen but somehow, it seemed like a time-bomb waiting to go off. quite amazed at how nonchalant i felt about the whole thing cos seriously, it doesn't really concern me anymore. daphne thought it was quite a daring move. i still notice. i still observe. what do i feel?
nothing.idealising is a big mistake. i hope you wouldn't be greatly disappointed.
blip rambled on
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
