Saturday, March 04, 2006
changing perspective.
i thank God for letting me see answers to the many questions that have been running through my mind ever since i started attending jm. maybe it's because i was too used to being the younger ones in the group, looking up to the seniors and assuming that i'll definitely learn more from the older ones. however, ever since sm dissolved and yams came into the picture, it dawned upon me that somehow they might not be as stable as i thought.
it's amazing to feel Him answering my hidden questions, to no longer doubt my service in church and to re-adjust my focus and purpose in my service. i dont want to be a self-centred christian, to always think of what God can do for me but rather, to be God-centred. sometimes i feel that i'm not doing enough, whether is it in church, my friends or my family. many times i felt the need to pull back though i cannot pinpoint on the reason. at least for now i know that my perspective must change, to get used to the fact that lessons can be learnt now matter what the environment is. because ultimately, He is the great teacher.
right now i can't seemed to organise my thoughts properly. i find it increasingly hard to write what i really feel. but the gist of the entry today is that i no longer doubt my place in jm and i trust that my spiritual growth will not be stumped but rather, continue to blossom and grow.
i guess i'll never know what you are thinking. but i can tell you that your self assumption of outgrowing ss saddens me. but then again, we were never on the same frequency.
blip rambled on
Saturday, March 04, 2006
