Monday, April 03, 2006
blanks.
into the second week of school and i'm already behind in my chapter reading. =/ realised that after the long hiatus, i cannot seemed to study effectively. i guess i should probably give myself a little more time to get into the momentum of things. current aspiration: to be a full fledged mugger if i can manage it. though a 3hour lecture sounded potentially looming, i was surprised to find that time seemed to fly past cos there's really no time for me to feel sleepy even when i'm having night lecs. there's constantly new terms to learn, concepts to understand and situations to ponder about. i'm actually having a gd time right now =) hopefully this attitude will persist for the next 2 (or maybe 3) years. heh.
things are pretty quiet now that ahma's in the nursing home. the sound of
nothing is really soothing to the soul and i can finally sit in the living room and read. i've also gotten my room back and after such a long time, i bid farewell to the feet of legolas, whom i've been beneath for the past 1.5years. yay. i'm now in the process of making my room look less like a storage area and more like a bedroom but alas! creativity and interior designing has never been my forte hence i'm stumped.
however! i drew up a list of things i want in my room:
- a pretty mirror. necessity.
- a nice wall clock.
- some available wall space. -.-
- this current computer.
- a bean bag or a small sofa.
- a nice lamp? hmm.
- a comfortable chair.
all the above shouts a trip to ikea. shall find time to go and hopefully stumble across other stuff to beautify my bare room. spent the afternoon cleaning up my room and throwing away accumulated rubbish lurking beneath the shadows. was reading through christmas cards (decided to keep them) and reminiscing about the past years when it became pretty clear: people
do come and go without me realising or remembering how. can't seemed to remember how it dissolved into nothing back then but i'm guessing it is probably my fault. dont really know how to salvage it now that it's gone cos i can't just go apologising out of the blue. =/ so now, subconsciously i think the reason for me building walls around myself is not because i want to protect myself, but rather, to
prevent myself from unknowingly hurting others cos the damage can be so easily inflicted and the connection easily destroyed.
distance distance.p/s: daph, whats up with you? blog entry wasn't..uh..informative. =/ injured my finger playing ball yesterday =( swollen and super painful.blah.
blip rambled on
Monday, April 03, 2006
