Sunday, April 23, 2006
faith in little things.
i realise that i'm really pressuring myself to do well for school. can't help it or stop myself cos i really really want to do well. its ironic to be reading up on stress and anxiety and at the same time feeling them myself. its really quite tiring to keep this going but i can't seem to shake the uptightness away. throughout the whole day i can't stop thinking about work. about the many things i havent start on and the fact that no matter how many hours i put in, i still can't close the gap.
i know i should not be relying on my own intelligence and to have faith in small things, big things, all things, all this i know! but i'm fearful and doubtful of my own ability and probably doubtful of God's ability. it's easy to say have faith but i guess i'm not there yet. i hope i will be there soon. didn't meet the 75% mark i was hoping for in the mcq test. super disappointed. was staring at the score and willing it to go up, unable to pull my eyes away from the screen.
Obsession= Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.sigh. on a brighter note, i finally made specs today, its baby pinkish metal frame and it looks real nice. gonna get it in 1 weeks time.yay. got a pair of johnsons contact lense for free (very soft, very comfortable) and bought new curtains for my room. i should probably sound proof my room next to block out the noisy squawking birds in the early mornings or i could just hire a hitman to shoot them all. we dont scream into your nests at night when you sleep do we? take a hike and squawk somewhere else.
anyhoo, think i'll go cheer myself up and watch sleepless in seattle. i'm happy to know that people think of me when they see sleepless in seattle. best movie ever!
blip rambled on
Sunday, April 23, 2006
