Monday, April 10, 2006
sickened.
i realised how easy words are able to change someone's perspective of the situation. just a twist and others will be led to believe that you are infact the suffering victim. i am not that self-righteous to proclaim that i believe everyone is good and that they will all change for the better when they grow up. cos frankly, i'm just a cynical hag that build walls and takes words with spoonfuls of salt and what happened the last time is really still etched in my memory. that is why i have no idea why i believed you in the first place.
i do not doubt for a second that what you told me really happened, but how much of it is accurate and untwisted, i dont know. what bothers me is that you chose to come to me with all that. is it because you already expected me to believe and to sympathise with you? or am i not the only one bluffed into it? it sickens me to realise that you have once again lied to my face. i find it really sad to reflect on whatever you have said in the past and categorising them as lies but honestly, i cannot even start to imagine myself believing another word you say.
how easy it is to lose faith in the words of others because of people like you who manipulates words and conjure up lies. these are reasons why people build up defensive barriers and choose to be skeptical. i can tell you i'm really disappointed but i doubt you care anyway.
blip rambled on
Monday, April 10, 2006
